fuhh!!

apalah yg t'jd dgn dunia kta skrng.
mcm2 kejadian yg x sepatutnya b'laku stiap hr.
entah kenapa org tfkir melakukan perbuatan bodoh yg hanya akan merugikan diri sndiri.
mgkn utk keseronokan, utk mhilangkan rasa bosan atau jga mgkn org tu gila or bekas pesakit mental yg blm pulih sepenuhnya..

hmm...
susa sgt ka utk b'fikir bahawa perbuatan bunuh membunuh ni perkara yg pling dilarang selain merogol, mencuri, mengintai, membuang bayi or apa2 ja yg dilarang oleh agama kita.
tabiat ka apa smpai membunuh pun bknnya stu, malah smpai 4-5 org.
itu perbuatan org normal ka?
setahu sya itu perbuatan org yg x berotak.
binatang pun sygkan nyawa apatah lg kta yg diberikan otak utk b'fikir.
tlng la. apa perasaan org tu if family sndiri d bunuh or d perlakukan mcm org x berperasaan.
habit ka apa?
harap la mereka yg menjadikn perbuatan keji ini sbg hobi dpt b'fikir dan insaf sblm ajal yg lebih dasyat menimpa diri sndiri.
so, apa nak di kata.
lu fikir la sndiri.

p/s: gunakan otak sblm melakukan sesuatu.

You say you're confused

You do or you don't

And it hurts

You say it may change

It will or it won't

And it hurts

You say we'll be fine

We shall or we shan't

And it hurts

You say you're worth trust

I can or I can't

And it hurts



They tell me to change

I don't and I fail

Cause it hurts



They tell me to work

I won't and I fail

Cause it hurts

They tell me to trust

I shan't and I fail

Cause it hurts

They tell me to smile

I can't and I fail

Cause it hurts



You tell me to smile

I try and I do

But it hurts

You tell me to trust

I try and I will

But it hurts

You tell me to work

I try and I shall

But it hurts

You tell me to change

I try and I can

But it hurts

You made me cry...

You tore me apart..

You left me in tears..

You've shattered my heart..



It wasn't your fault..

I guess it was me..

for love can't be forced..

Perhaps we weren't meant to be..



It still doesn't help..

now that i know..

Because for some reason..

my heart won't let go..



I've tried more than once..

to get over you..

but you make it so hard..

with cute things you do..



I thought love was joy..

but i've got nothing to gain..

just sorrows..,tears..

and a little more pain..



The day the pain started ..

reality came too..

It was the day i realized ..



......I'LL NEVER BE WITH YOU.......

i was waiting for one whole day and this is what i get. so pathetic. im sad.

i nvr felt like dis before. i was so lonely. lonely and alone. hmm..theres nothing i can do right now. i was alone before dis but i nvr felt so lonely like dis. its like that no one's care about me. i guest things will nvr change for me.

do heart really ache? if urs not, mine really do. what should i do? only my blog understand me better. does it really matter to sum1 else? i guest not. even my lover does not understand me. i've been in this situation so many time but y does its still hurt me much? y does i still love him so much? n y i cant 4get him easily. i almost give up but i guess i still can stand strong like this. pretend that there's nothing happen to me. im tired. i will die at any time soon. even im not mean it that much. i know that being in a relationship is a good feeling but when u have a heart ache, u will nvr say that it was good. i just hope that someday i will understand y i have to be in this situation more often.

I'm single.
That's one sentence I'm not afraid to say.
Being single is great.
I wouldn't give it up for a minute.
I'm not saying being in a relationship is bad.
Having someone to love is a beautiful thing...
If you don't have all the problems.
By problems I mean the arguing, the sadness, the heartaches and breaks, the rules, the expectations, the lies and deceit.
Being single means being without all those things.
At least when it comes to having a partner.

I'm single.
And I love it.

Tears you try so hard to hide
You hold it all inside
Pretend it doesn't matter
Why keep it yourself
When you got someone else
You know can make it better?
You try to be so strong
But I always know when something's wrong
See when you're feeling down
Hey, wasn't it you
Who's always been there for me?
Don't forget what we've been through together
Hey, isn't it true?
We promised to always be
Best friends forever, yeah
Words you don't need to say
The sad that's on your face
Isn't hard to see through
I've been there once or twice
It's you that made things right
My turn to be there for you
You try to be so strong
But I always know when something's wrong
See when you're feeling down
Hey, wasn't it you
Who's always been there for me?
Don't forget what we've been through together
Hey, isn't it true?
We promised to always be
Best friends forever
When the rain comes down
I'll be there
I will always be around
Just wanna be the one to catch you
When you fall
Hey, wasn't it you
Who's always been there for me?
Don't forget what we've been through together
Hey, isn't it true?
We promised to always be
Best friends forever

i have a secret.
no one know my secret.
even my closest friends doesn't know Diz secret.
i wan to share diz secret to sumbody else, but im afraid it will reveal n exposed to d other person. im juz afraid.
so wat should i do? keep it for real or?? (thinkin' 4 a minute).. ok now i hav my decision. i wan to..ehemm...(think again n again).
ok, i decided to keep diz secret to myself. hahahaha.. nama pun secret can.saja ja exposed in my blog. apa, blog sa sndiri jga pun.
if anyone can guest, u are great..

ps* he's my dirty little secret

if i could, i wan 2 b an angel.
Y?
so i will b hepi always,
not always sad.
so i can free 4m any heart broken,
not feel it.
so i can fly away 4m d one who hurt me,
not always near him.
so i can free 4m any problems,
not causin' any problems.
so i will mend any broken heart,
not causin' it.
so i can laugh,
not cryin'.

Di sini aku masih sendiri
Merenungi hari-hari sepi
Aku tanpamu, masih tanpamu

Bila esok hari datang lagi
Kucoba 'tuk hadapi semua ini
Meski tanpamu, ooo... meski tanpamu

Bila aku dapat bintang yang berpijar,
Mentari yang tenang bersamaku, disini
Kudapat tertawa menangis merenung
Di tempat ini aku bertahan

Suara... dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya, pujaan hatiku
Aku di sini menunggunya, masih berharap, di dalam hatinya,
Suara, dengarkanlah aku
Apakah aku, slalu di hatinya
Aku di sini menunggunya, masih berharap, di dalam hatinya,

Dan aku masih tetap disini,
Kulewati semua yang terjadi,
Aku menunggumu, oh, aku menunggu

(Suara dengarkanlah aku
Apa kabarnya pujaan hatiku)
Aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap, di dalam haitnya,
Suara dengarkanlah aku,
Apakah aku ada di hatinya
Aku disini menunggunya masih berharap, di dalam hatinya...
Suara dengarkanlah aku,
Apa kabarnya, pujaan hatiku,
Aku disini menunggunya, masih berharap di dalam hatinya, oh, oh, oh.
(Suara dengarkanlah aku...)

I fell in a perfect way
Never had a choice to make
Closed my eyes and landed here
Didn't see the trouble
And I didn't care

I can't unlove you
Can't do that
No matter how I try
I'll never turn my back on
Someone who loved me too
I can do most anything I have to
But I can't unlove you

But this one thing I cannot change
I almost kind of like the pain
It will take forever
To fade away

There's always time for other dreams
Why must we erase these things?

An-yŏng-ha-se-yo. 안녕하세요 hehe..its mean hi... my title is a little confusin'.. who is HeeChul..yeah!!! he is my super sunior idol. i like him so much. fall in love wit him even he's kind of girly sumtimes but i like diz guy so much. hmm, ok mayb a little too much. hehe..nothin' much i wan 2 say here.. juz wan 2 tell n exposed dat i love n like him so much..

Diz kind of ppl really annoying me. huh! actin' like an angel in front but at the back,juz like b**** and devil. i hav an experienced 2 hav a fren like diz. all words she said r nonsense n annoyin' like she was d best among all. sori ya, im not interested. its juz bcoz u r my fren doesnt mean i like u. how dare u talkin' bad things bout me n my frenz. u will juz exposin' ur real damn attitude. its not dat im sayin' diz dat i hav d same attitude as u do, no! im juz expressin' wat i feel 2 hav a fren like u. 4 me, i dont care if i dont have a frenz like u! seriously! u juz a sad ppl who want 2 get an attention by exposin' ur real stupidity. u act like a super queen n act like u must b seen by d whole world. do u regret things? no! i know u wont. but all i know is backstabbers will always crash n burn. serve u right! dont go 4 us if ur frenz leavin' u.

u wanted to know the worst about me, the things I told no one and hid 4m every1. How do I explain who I am when I am not even sure of it myself? hmmm.. How do I put into words the worst parts of me that I have run 4m for so long? I will tell u my secrets, I will tell u everythin'. Maybe it will help me. Maybe u will hate me for it or maybe u will understand. I don't know, but I am sick of running. So here it is, I will give u what u want.

I hate u. That is not true, but sometimes I think it is. I will not answer the phone when u call, even though I want to talk to u so bad. I will not call u, even though it is all I want to do. I will not reach out to u, even though every part of me wants to. I will be mad at u, I will want to hurt u, I will always try to ignore you because I am afraid to let you closer. I need ur attention, u know i want it, but I will greet them with cold indifference. I will be jealous of the attention u give others, and I will get mad at you for ignoring me. I will feel close to u and care for u one day, only to be mad and want u out of my life the next.

This is for u, but u r far 4m me. u are the people close to me now. u are the people I want to be close to even though I have kept you away. u are the friends I have pushed away in the past, the friends I never forgave and never let back in my life, the friends I never had the chance to tell this to.u are the people I will meet in the future, the people I will care about until once again I push them out of my life.u are the part of me that is still trying to understand who I am.huh! sad.

huh! sda byk kali sya ckp jgn buat sya mrah. ni x. mkin sya b'tmbah2 mrh dgn perangai dia. i know im not a perfect girl, so jgnla expect yg sya akan jd better dr diri sya sndiri. sdala apa yg sya buat smua dia anggap slah, lpas 2 explanation yg sya buat lngsung dia x pcya n trima. so, sya mau xplen pa lg. susa jga mau ksi puas hti org ni. xsmestinya org 2 akan buat keslhan yg sma b'ulang kali. tp if sya, mgkn jgala. hmm.. td time sya p mkn, dia msg tnya sya dmana. then sya ckp sya p mkn wit my housemate. bgni konon reaksi muka dia after sya bgtau beg2. pnyala. dia xpcaya ni. mcmla sya ni p buat bnda yg bkn2. tp wat do i care . sya sda ckp bnda yg btl. depends dri dia mau pcya ka x. rite? apapun, sya ttp gmbira skrng even blm study 4 nex paper. wat nex paper! adui! reaksi muka sya sma sda dgn dia. gudbye blog, mau study dlu.

b4 diz every nite i will thinkin' bout him even it was a coincidence. N now i realize dat mayb im juz d 1 who miz him but he nvr did. i think its better if i appreciate d 1 who is always there 4 me n not d 1 who i was always there 4. i've nothin' else 2 say. juz "wat has faded is already lost".

I still miss you…
But not like I did before.
The intense aching I felt,
Isn’t there anymore.

I still whisper your name…
Not as often as I used to.
Now it may be once,
Before the day is through.

I still hear your voice…
Replaying in my mind.
But it’s fading now,
Soon silence I will find.

I still long for you…
To feel your touch.
But it’s not like before,
I don’t dream it as much.

I still think about you…
And wonder how you are.
But my feelings have changed,
And they don’t go as far.

I still feel you sometimes…
Maybe you’re thinking of me?
Or maybe it’s just a little memory,
Of how it used to be.

I still love you…
But it’s just not as strong.
Because I’m letting you go now,
So we can both move on.

You still have a piece of my heart..
Because I always felt you here.
Now, I’m hoping and praying,
That, that too, will quickly disappear.

This will be my last goodbye..
I’ve nothing else to say.
Everything I felt for you,
Can now just fade away.